"And you won't leave me alone! You're stalking me, you're everywhere. And then you act like I am out of line for asking you to stop and leave. You are cruel to me." Xingchen insisted, his voice a little desperate, edging on hysterical. He was so tired and hurt, he didn't know where to put any of his energy any more.

He wanted to love Song Lan and take care of him, to be happy with him, but his dreams were haunted by Chengmei, doing unspeakable things to him and calling him 'baby'. "I'm engaged. Please. Don't." Don't tempt him. Don't make him do it. They both knew he would and he just wanted to be better than that. Just once.